As some of you may have noticed, I have been MIA for a really long time. I've been super caught up with school and work, that I almost forgot how much fun I had on here. I recently got promoted and have taken a new range of responsibilities. I'm on my final quarters of school, therefore any time left is dedicated to my schoolwork. Becoming an adult has been the scariest experience, especially because I started so young. We all beg to grow- up, but we never think of the actual consequences. We think it's all fun and games, when in reality all I got was sleepless nights and depression.
There's days when I have to cry myself to sleep, because I tell myself that I can't anymore. There are times where I beat myself up (metaphorically of course) and regret everything I've done. You forget about your friends, and push them aside. It's so hard being an adult, and honestly it always seems so much easier to quit.
My birthday was a couple days ago, and that was only another reminder that I'm getting older. However, this birthday was different. I requested the whole weekend off. I had almost forgotten how fun it was to be surrounded by your loved ones. I had forgotten what it was like to go out. To sleep in. To have fun. This birthday, I read the most beautiful birthday card from my mom. It may sound cheesy, but it was the fuel that I needed to keep going. All those horrible days were not in vain. I do have a career. I do know what I'm doing with my life, and I sure as hell believe in myself to keep going. And it all starts here...
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